Some girls favour the guys that know their way around a computer...I'm one of those girls.

When we're younger you trust your family to tell you right from wrong. Don't talk to strangers; don't cross the road 'til the red man is having a nap, etc. But when we get to the middle of our teen years, they kinda let you go make your own mistakes. And you assume your friends can let you do the same, right?

They allow you to fall in and out of love, and let you fall out with your parents. They can inform you that certain people are not supposed to be hung around with. And they're just supposed to be there to pick up the pieces and help you get on with everything else...it's kinda like a friend's duty. That's even more so when it comes to affairs of the heart, right? 

I can guarantee that not every person will like every one of their friend's ex/current boyfriends/girlfriends. I can guarantee it. But does that mean you tell the friend that you don't like the person? That you don't like the way in which you meet new guys? That they think they should 'warn' you against meeting boyfriends online? No. What they're supposed to do is stand by and offer 'advice' not 'warnings' if they've offered advice...that's all they can do, until it all blows up in smoke. They don't say something like 'Im going to have to warn her. You all know what happened last time she met someone like this' that's just not what you do. GAH! This entry makes no sense. So yeah.

I’m not one of those girls that can meet guys in real life, I mean c’mon…look at me. I’m socially awkward, I’m not the thinnest of people and flare my arms around far too much(But that’s because of Grace’s influence) it’s the only way I can meet people. I don’t talk to people at college, and I don’t really leave the house anymore(…I used to go to gigs in town…but a certain person’s boyfriend stopped her going, and I don’t go places by myself) so I think I’m allowed to talk to guys online. I think I’m allowed to sit until god knows what time in the morning, talking to them on msn and talking about YouTube. Because tbfh it’s the only form of actual human interaction I get these days. 

What a way to start a blog.

Right now, I'm confused beyond belief. Like seriously. 

To quote my tumblr:(8:46pm|17th October 2010)

"I forgot what if felt like, to 'like' someone. And to want to hug them after never hugging them before. And to want to lay next to them staring at their ceiling; just talking about the things you love. And to want to run your fingers through their hair while they sleep(romantically, not creepily.)  And to have conversations at 4am about nothing what-so-ever. And to try and prepare yourself for that first shared kiss, even though you can never quite come to terms with the fact it’s finally happening to just…not want to be with Chris :L"

So I kinda met this guy...well, I've never met him. I have him on facebook and everything and we've talked and everything. And we're in this collab vlog together. I think I may have a mild thing for him >.< I can't though. GAH! I mean, all I really know of him is whats on his videos, and the occasional things in his messages. And it's not abotu how he looks.'Cause he's totally not who I usually go for. He's not coverd in peircings, tattoos, facepaint, eye liner and doesn't use the worst language ever. He's a lostie, and a grammar nerd and stuffs ^^ but I...I don't want to do anything. But it's like...'NO GET HERE SO I CAN HUGZ YOU >__>
Then fucking Chris said some crap, about well...crap. So now I'm all like WHUTTEHFUCK!?

Meh. I'll just shoot myself in the face.